ERRATUM: There is a typographical error on the 3rd line in the 3rd paragraph of erik's letter... it should have been "because" not "becasue"... I realized that maybe God had kept me away from all of those girls because I was meant for you.

We do make errors, or mistakes in our lives... and it's part of our lives... and it's how we face those mistakes that matters... one thing for sure, accepting that we have committed a mistake is the first step of facing it... and we can always post an erratum to correct it... Peace!

Wasted + Love

Hi... been talking to myself lately.... and i find it healthy! i'm not going crazy and i know others may find it weird... but it's good and therapeutic; on moments that you need to be on your own...(especially when you do get a reply from "yourself". hehehe...)

I'm on an emotional rollercoaster, i'm happy, sad, happy, sad, happy, sad! hahahaha. there are times that i'm supposed to be happy, but i'm not... and there are times that i'm supposed to be sad, but i'm not... but one thing i'm sure of, most of the times i'm just normal, or at least pretending to be normal...

 
Been reading "WASTED" by Gerry Alanguilan... i have read it before, was able to "borrow" the book format of it, and bought it's latest resurrection, and as they say, the Final Edition... I love it! As how Karen Kunawicz puts it, "WASTED... is not about violence. It's about intensity, passion and most of all LOVE..."

The graphic novel simply illustrates one man's ordeal when he learned about loving and losing love dangerously... it's bloody hell...

But i love the final chapter, the conclusion, not because of it's sad ending, nor the bloody scene, but because of Eric's love letter to Jen. It's so moving and greatly describes the joy of being in love....

Here are some excerpts... (sir gerry, if i may....)

...sometimes I just can't believe how lucky I am, having someone like you in my life. You know, someone to be with when everything gets to be too much. ...

...sometimes I do nothing else but think of you. I would sit by myself, close my eyes, and there you are right by my side. I'd lean forward and whisper in your ear "I Love You." I'd put my arms around you and hold you tight like I would never let you go. It's a wonderful moment and I wish with all my heart that it would never end...

... I've had my chance to see other girls, to have girlfriends, get married even. But for some reason, I didn't. I've had crushes here and there, thought I had fallen in love once or twice, but NONE of them, I realize now, were ever really serious... I realized that maybe God had kept me away from all of those girls because I was meant for you. And not a day passes that I don't thank Him for giving me the most wonderful, the most beautiful girl, I have ever met. Everytime I see something nice, something really beautiful, I always think of sharing it with you, be it a wonderful movie, an extra-pretty sunset or a startingly exotic bird perched on a branch outside my window.

...If only such a thing could be possible, I would share with you all the joy there is in me. All the joy I have ever felt in my life. Maybe then you won't ever be sad or cry again... I want to stay with you all my life. I want to grow old with you, get sick with you. I want to take care of you and keep you from all harm.

... I really love you. I hope you won't get tired of hearing it because I won't ever get tired of saying it.

... Last night I dreamed of you. And it was so wonderful because in that dream.. I saw you SMILE... I love you so much!


mushy me....

Risking....

The following is from a friend, Marcie.... it was posted before in titikpilipino forum (a forum which i frequent); for those who are in love and/or falling out of love... I did not dwell much on this before, until now...


RISKING


To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.

To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.

To reach out for another is to risk involvement.

To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.

To place your ideas, your dreams, before a crowd is to risk their loss.

To love is to risk not being loved in return.

To live is to risk despair.

To try is to risk failure.

BUT risks must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing and is nothing.

They may avoid suffering and sorrow, but they cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love and live.

Chained by their attitudes, they are a slave,

They have forfeited their freedom.

ONLY a person who risks is free.............

Been hooked to Linkin Park's "Meteora" and "Hybrid Theory" albums.... I have them with me for a long time already but it's just now that i'm really allowing myself to analyze the lyrics and the music... and it amazes me to find myself being affected by the lyrics.... touching my life in a way, and making me realize things that I normally take for granted.... The heavy songs and lyrics seems like inspirational verses to keep me going... most of the songs do touch the sensitive side of me (maybe the reason why i'm making this blog after all)... some lyrics seem fit for a love song... but LP's hard, rap metal, and distinct style makes the difference...

So for now, I have to dwell to these songs and lyrics... and perhaps, in the future, the same songs and lyrics will make me a better man....!

peace!

The following bits and pieces are from Linkin Park's Meteora album:

* Nobody's Listening

I got a heart full of pain
A head full of stress
Handful of anger
Held in my chest...


* Don't Stay

Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I'm in disbelief I don't know
Somehow I need you to go....


* Somewhere I Belong

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused...


* Easier To Run

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone....


* Faint

So I let go
Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face Away and pretend that i'm not
But I'll be here
'Cause you're all i got...

-- So what about these lyrics? I find it amusing... these songs are hard, rap metal... but these lyrics can move one's emotions... words are too powerful i guess... am i being sentimental or what? i don't know...

hi there... it's been a week na pala since my last post.... been very busy with work (ehem!) and other stuffs.... i'm having sleepless nights lately.... err, i do sleep around 1-2 am.... but don't get me wrong.... i don't go out on gimmicks... it's just that, i do start my "other" work at around 10pm... you see, i'm in the entertainment business... hehehe... no! i'm not an actor, or a singer, or a dancer, although how i wish i'm into showbusiness (some of my friends do believe that i should have joined That's Entertainment, or other shows then). Not that because i'm good looking (yun nga ang problem!), but because i'm a walking funny man! (yabang!)... i could have been a part of Bubble Gang or Klasmeyts or, Kool Ka Lang, etc.

Now going back to the "other" job... i guess, i have to thank Dau Ming Zsu, Hwa Ze Lei, Ximen, Mei Shou, and Shan Cai.... i'm not a fan, okay.... but these guys helped me earn extra moolah! Meteor Garden is one hell of a commodity! And now that season 2 is here, i'm expecting to earn more in the coming days... I even branched out to other series, TV series, that is.... Smallville, Sex and the City, Six Feet Under, 24, Taken, Gilmore Girls, Buffy, Birds of Prey, Friends, etc.... so if you're missing some episodes, or might be a whole season series, you better ask me..... baka meron ako.....